Nikah

Sedikit lagi perkongsian.
Moga sudi.

Setelah beberapa waktu mencari.
Mencuba dan mengalami beberapa siri kekecewaan,

Sampai hati pandai berbunga-bunga,
Maka, insyaAllah,
Tanggal 28 zulhijjah 1434h ini,
Aku akan termaterai sebagai suri hidup arjuna hati, dengan izinNya.

Majlis dalan beberapa hari lagi ini cuma khas buat keluarga terdekat.
Jadi belum ada yang dijemput.
InsyaAllah macam mana aku begitu suka pada keringkasan, resepsi versi paling santai akan dibuat tahun hadapan.
Akan aku jemput pada siapa pun yang sudi.

Untuk Sabtu ini, sudikanlah doakan kami.
Semoga terbinanya masjid nanti berleluasalah anak-anak Adam dan Hawa yang menjaga agama dan keturunannya.

InsyaAllah.

google kehidupan

Aku selalu tak pernah faham dengan banyak benda
Dan hanyak antara semua yang aku tak fahamkan
Yang pernah ada dalam mana-mana sumber bacaan
sampai sedar sendiri
yang semua tu kadang-kadang terjawab atas tikar empat segi tepat

wahai bakal penerima saya di ruang hati,
Terima kasih atas perkongsian.

moga sampai tua pun awak tetap sudi.

terus terang

tak reti terus terang. tak pernah pandai.

sebab, bila cuba nanti tunggang langgang.

jujur, mampu. tapi ayat tentu berlapik-lapik.

jadi di sini, adalah medan aku jujur dan terang tanpa perlu malu atau segan.

sebab semuanya adalah tulisan.

jadi sepuluh yang membaca ada sepuluh nada yang berbeza walau seakan sama.

sejak ogos, sejak dua keluarga bertemu.

aku puas menyusun, bagaimana cara paling molek untuk beritahu.

jadi hati keras batu aku kata, 

"peduli apa sama yang lain. kasi tahu aja pada yang beri erti"

tapi bila waktu makin dekat, tak mungkin jadi macam tu.

sebab, semua yang konon tak ada erti, 

adalah yang mengertikan hidup kita.

walaupun, orang tu adalah bekas-bekas kekasih.

tapi aku, jenis,

once i go, i don't look back.

and if i do,

i don't look back in anger.

13 hari lagi, and let's kicking!

my favourite

my favourite.

here and there after, bismillah.

of writing and passion

all in one day.
rain, joy, frust, gloomy, breezy, freezing.

alhamdulillah, things happened.
alhamdulillah, some things doesn't happened at all.

siang tadi di boco9, sambil dengar kak faz berpuisi,
dan menyanyi, i felt like,
what i told angah was was not all right.
a night before, we were talking about how long has it been since we last writing.
i mean, seriously writing. and i told her,
'the moment we felt happy and we became happy, we don't write anymore'

i guess, i was wrong.

there will always be something inspiring.
maybe not to write, but to enjoy.
maybe not just that, maybe that's all.

16 more days

you know, life can sometimes be funny.
and weird too. but you just have to keep on living because you have to serve the purpose for the afterlife.

nak kahwin, siapa tak suka?
orang gila pun suka.
tapi dugaan dia. Mahanya.
like how i always goes to when i can't handle things.
i feel like giving up.

the beginning was fun, and exciting.
tapi, apalah angin kalau tak melanda.
honestly, these few weeks has been a real tough challenge.
both, physically and emotionally.

i had voiced up about giving up.
two times. two times!
and i'm scared.

and then i came across gdsjht's blog.
and then i realize.
why give up now?
it's not an end. it's just a beginning.
maka, here we go.
16 more days.

Rabbi Yassir wala tu’assir. Rabbi tham mim bil hayr. Rabbi zidni ‘ilman war zuqni fahman
O my Lord, make things easier for me, do not make things difficult for me. O My Lord, let my affairs end with goodness. O my Lord, increase my knowledge and grant me understanding.

source : Fingularity

dear happiness

dear happiness,

i don't know where you're lying at. but you promised me that you'll be there for me.
so where ever you are, please allow me to find you.
i have never stop having faith that you exists.
which why i have travel this far.
to meet you. to get engaged with you.
just like how pain and sorrow was here. and still remain here.

dear my happiness,

allow me,
to have you.

sincerely,
me.

words and words

i knew that i can work around with words.
i know that sometimes, my word marked people's heart.
both, in good and bad way.
but i come to realize, when it comes to my own heart feeling,
i have always choose to write instead of voicing it out.

i talked a lot when i feel like to. but i don't talk much about how i feel inside.
i may share, bit to bit. but that would be it.

so i thank you,
for making me realize, that i should at least go to you, and spill it on you.
cause we want and we will start sharing a life soon enough.
and it would be fair, if you did that too.

thank you, for that late, very late night conversation we had.

that's why, i once wrote, i don't mind if we talk less,
but we will smile more, love more,
and once we speak, we speak our heart.

i love you, for who you have been so far.