balik dan balik~

owh akan pulang mlm ini...

sesuatu yag shaye tak shuke..

adalah pulang dan xm!

mggu dpn je..

owh tidak²..

akan menghadapinyer jugak..

huhuk..

tabahla idrin...

kuatkan semangat dan mari berjuang!~

when i dun no what am i supposed to do =P~

okayh...
tatau ape nk buat mlm neyh...
its like a bored nite..
having dinner with the whole clan..
tapy tak mcm dulu da kot.. =(
i'm not into any of the conversations...

i dun even noe on how to get in that type of conversation anymore..

seems like, as i move out from here...

i do pull myself away..

not only from them...

but also frm my friends...

i keep avoiding to see any of them..

n i wonder by doing that,

will i somehow being forgotten..

im no longer have any specified place in their life..

in any of their's, i guess..

as i keep on pulling away...

avoiding from anyone else...

its nobody's fault fer the reason i became like this...

i might purposely choose to be this way...

i enjoy the new life i have now..

the new friends i have...

but everyone i left behind..

are always being remembered..

always i carry with me all the sweetest memory we had together...

i wih that someday..

somehow i might have the chances to meet them again...

to just simply hang around, have fun together..

*sighs*

i almost forgot when did the last time i met them..

when did the last time i had fun with them..

with those who i grew up with..

with those who i learn about life..

during the wonderful world of skools, kindergarden...

n the amazing time when i'm still a young, fresh teenagers..

i did a lot of mistakes, which i shouldn't..

i did hurts so many of them as im not supposed to..

i'm afraid of the future life that i'm about to face..

i'm about to move on and entering a new phase of life..

i'm no longer going to be a teenagers..

next year, i'll be no longer sate my ages wit the "teen" behind..

i'll be leaving this wonderful moment soon...

the moment that only comes once i a lifetime...

that will never can be reverse back by any purposes or reasons..

whatever happens in the future, begins now..

begins with any of my own decision...

n only me can decide on how i want it to be...

i believe as long as have hopes..

i'll fd away to make my life better than before...

i believe, although i left so many precious people behind,

i'll never forget them..

cause without them in my life before,

there will be no life today..

=)

-nuridrinrosni .

-l y r i c -

6ixth Sense - Tak Bisa Memilihmu

Telah jauh terpisah, diriku dan dirimu,
Dalam ruang dan waktu,
Sendiriku jalani sepiku, tanpa dirimu,
Resahku tanpa haadirmu,
Sungguh berat hatiku untuk merasakannya

Salahku mencintai dirinya saat jauhku terpisah
Darimu,Dan hadirnya menyentuh hatiku,
Untuk cintainya,
Hatiku pun inginkannya,
Hingga runtuh setiaku kepada dirimu

Kusakiti hatimu yang tulus mencintaiku….

C/O
Maaf ku tak bisa memilih dirimu
Karena kuterhanyut mencintai dia
Inilah salahku yang memberi ruang
Didalam hatiku tuk mencintainya…

(terhanyut jiwa ini,terjatuh dihatinya)

a k h i r

final is about to cum...
seperti byase..
aku takkan pernah betol² bersedie..
akan tiba saat² terakhir dan aku bertungkus lumus..
owh..aku hanye menyusahkan hidup..
dan seakan-akan bermain dengan mase depan..
pencarian hidup hanya akan kehilangan ertinya..
tapi malam akn tetp jadi siang..
ombak akan tetap memukul ke pantai..
angin tetap mahu bertiup..
hidup ini tetap harus diteruskan..
walaupun ada masenyer terase bagai hidup ini akan berakhir..

s o m e t h i n g

this is something;

for the past few months..i've been away from everyone i love..

moving to sumewhere else..

to start a new phase of life..

afta a very long break (of absolutely nothing had been done)

finally i get a place to continue my studies..

being at a new place...

with new friends...

and family to be made (erm..betol ke ni...?)

i finally made it to adapt with the current situation and surroundings..

but the hardest part is to handle the situation when i started being sensitive..

to those them who i already accept as part of my family (we used to call each other with the along, angah like...)

its not their fault when i get upset, or mad..

its about me being too sensitive as i treat them just like my vains..

i love them the way they are..

n sumtyms i taught them the same thing i wish i cud have been done for my youngers at home..

and few days before the Aidifitri,

i went to a place..to meet n wait fer sumone..

that sumone who i will never left behind..

n sumone who i'm willing to do anything just to make him happy..

i went to his place..

staying with my oldfwen's..

and spending the whole 3 days with them there..

during those days..i felt that i need nothing else..

its like living in my dream life..

a life that i always looking for...

i felt like i already have everything i need..

i have my fwens..

my family..

my simple family..

full with love n caring...

something that i always wish for..

i'm happy..

my true hapiness..

qUeStIoNs??

new background utk friendster..menandakan satu musim yang baru utk aku..
adekah kemungkinan segala mimpi ngeri itu telah berlalu..?
ataupun persiapan untuk aku melalui satu lagi mimpi ngeri yang nyata..
aku tak lagi mampu untuk menganalisa masa² yang akan datang..
segala²nya dalam kesamaran..
aku tak pasti akan keputusan yang aku buat ni akan jd keputusan yang betul..
ataupun menjadi kesalahan utama yang akan aku sesali..

there are too many things that i need to decide on my own..
and things are getting too difficult as too many conflict suddenly bombs out
i made a lot of mistakes this days..
i'm losing every single thing that i appreciate so much..
it seems like i'm letting it go
letting it go elsewhere..to somewhere i don't know..
its like living in a world where i don't know myself anymore..
its like living with those strangers who don't know about me..
i don't know what else i should decide on..
and why should i?
if only then i will only make mistakes..
and hurt those who i love
and then hurt myself..?

suram..muram..kelam

penat bersedeyh..
takkan mampu untuk terus begini..
keinginan untuk meneruskan hari-hari mendatang..
takkan same seperti dulu..
hari akan datang menemani beserta kesuraman..
suram, hitam dan pedih..

now, i miss you..

ku harus menemui centaku..
mencari tau hubungan kita
apa masih atau tlah berakhir..

kau menggantungkan hubungan ini
kau diamkan aku tanpa sebab
maunya apa? ku harus bagamana kaseyh..

sampai kapan kau gantung cerita centaku
memberi harapan
hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi
dan meninggalkan dirimu..

detik² waktu pun terbuang
teganya kau mengambil centaku
bicaralah biar semua pasti

tentunya hubungan centa dengan mu
membuatku sakit
hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi
dan meninggalkan dirimu..


sumtyms..its becum too hard fer me to understand you..but none of it will stop me from loving you..i'd rather cry every night or spend the whole life in pain than letting you live in sorrow..as u are my everything..nothing can be compare to you..to the love u gave me..to every single thing i've taken from you..i wish..things will work out fer us..things wil be better fer u n me..i miss you so much..i miss all the sweet moments we used to have..i miss you more than any of that now..i miss the real you who will always be the one i reach for each n everyday..i miss you..