embrace the circle

soon will mark my 1st year with current co
and once again, i am venturing into doing something out from my usual scopes,
but 11 months down the road, it is still related to something i have always liked.
it's people related and it allows me to meet more people
career wise, it's a developmental and learning curve advancement

however, the environment are much dense with very minimal diversity involved
in some days i feel like my capability of communicating are getting rusty
but i can have the best of both world, ey?

turned 30, in february.
a minimal celebration but still, turning a year older was supposed to make me become even more matured
and more moderate
and i liked that as i can feel i am enjoying the fact of getting older

somehow, it also reminds me of getting nearer to an expiring date
of the decreasing period of time with some of people in my life
as i am getting older, some others are getting even older
and being old, is closely related to death
and death is always being next to separation, losing

in most of my random thoughts, i simply hate this
i hate the fact that someday death will tear me apart (physically) with my loved ones
but if i wanted to go on with life,
that will be the circle

and that is something that i need embrace