game levels

trust me, nothing comes easy
as much as we would hope our life as getting less complicated when we solved a conflict,
it actually never turned to be such

a lot of people i met and from what i've heard told the almost the same analogy
"life is like a stage of games, the more you advanced the level, the more it becomes difficult"

it is somehow rather true
and somehow rather, is hard to swallow

in my current life, among those that never gets easy is responsibility
to the hell comes the expectation, i am done living up to people's expectations
but, it does cover bits and pieces in work, in responsibilities with family

there are some of the days that i feel like i am just heading back home,
and wanted to snuggle to my comforter and sleep the whole day
(which i still can enjoy on some of the weekends in town, though)
but, on some rational days, i realize that i would just have to go through it
embrace the difficulties, and there, it's done!

some of the day are like today.
completed a task, and felt good about it

yes, i hardly spent time here nowadays, but i guess,
in many more years in front, just like how i used to like coming here and ranting things out,
i still enjoy this even years after when i first started

so, how was your day, today?

rant, 2017, post - i

life can never be easy on you
and it took a different space of time for each and everyone to realize about it
at one phase of life i thought, "that's it, I'm quitting"
but then i will atill find myself dragging my whole soul to go on and keep going

i guess, i should realize ealier, now and then on the fact that
you may wish and want so many things that didn't happen or yet to happen
but you will never know if there is all good in it

home

you can never be so sure about future
and you can never be so certain about present
there will be a moment when you would just lose it
and moment where you can't stay contained
no matter how hard you try you just lost it

but it always takes two to tango
and more to make it more merrier
sometimes you just have to let loose or cut it loose
your game, your call

and i'm glad, you still come home to me
where i still find my home in you

quick hello after hiatus

many years ago,
this was my ranting space.
which i allocate for the public to see.
and after many years, i have stop writing and stop sharing.
so it become an abandoned space of mine

i still like writing though
which makes my insta post sometimes sounded like a blog entry instead
limited times on daily basis but life have been wonderful so far

it is half way through out the year and only i can come and write it here
but still, not much.

let see if i can come again sometime soon

there's a lot of things to share, basically.
especially my latest addiction, scuba diving. :)

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