Memoirs

Sometimes, no matter how many years have passed by,

Or how things have gotten better and even much better,

I believe, sometimes when you listen to a certain sound,

Or song, the feelings are surreal as if it just happened to be yesterday when it happen.

And tomorrow will be as normal as it have been before.
Happy weekend!

dari dengar jangan jatuh, suatu pernah by fynnjamal

there are certain things in life that you choose to remember

it's like holding on but you have partially let it go

it's like a very strong reminder not to repeat the same mistake again next time

or most of the time it serves just as a piece of memory for you to smile for and be thankful for it to happened sometimes ago so that you would live today

i would have lied if i said i never once regret some of the things i did, said and even felt

to a certain extent, years later i moulds the stronger me

it makes me appreciate little things more

and made me realize some other things matters most that the other

and not every single person whom was given the sImilar situation yields the same solution

most of the things happened made me love more now

made me smile more now

allows me to be with who i am with now

all that matters now is not, NOT to give it up

because when there is to orrow meant for you,

you would need to hold on

move on

masih

kita masih bisa buka mata dan lihat yang kita kasih dan sayang ada di sebelah

kita masih boleh nanti malam balik dan baring di tilam empuk selepas seharian tersandar di kerusi berdepan komputer riba

kita masih mampu makan sepinggan nasi putih sama telur goreng, sambal ikan bilis taruk kicap

kita masih senyum di setiap letih dan lelah

kita masih duduk di takuk yang sama

Baru

Aku kira sudah sampai masanya beralih arah

Tukar semua sudut pandangan dan mula dari kosong

Tukar kerja dan suasananya

Aku percaya ini adalah waktu yang tepat

Sebab aku sudah sampai semula ke zon di mana aku dengar dan nampak all people's view

I know I am working with people whom at any point of time can stab each other just to save theirselves

Dan lambat laun kalau aku juga turut tinggal, i will stab someone's back too to survive

Question is, will this new place helped me?

I asked one of my dear friend

And he said, "sometimes you cannot be sure. It's just a gambling. Cause new friends, new place and new environment. 😅 But if you ask me without a glance answer, gerak hati and good path career observation"

Now, i guess for the sake of better career, here's to new things!

I hope that it will give the best as i remember when i left the previous team a lot of changes benefits others. Hoping the same thing for this team too.

And perhaps its time to be an individual contributor where i am only responsible for my own periuk nasi.

trobek

kalau pandang kembali ke satu dua tahun yang sudah,
rasa lega sebab setiap hari aku akan bangun dan cuba untuk teruskan semula hidup
tambah setiap hari yang sekarang, ada seseorang yang akan menjadi punca dan sebab untuk terus bangun dan menyelusuri rutin

satu dunia masih bertanya, bila yang berdua nak jadi tiga
tapi sekarang dah boleh senyumkan tanpa rasa kecil hati
sebab, setiap kali rasa macam kekurangan yang begitu, bila semua orang sekeliling sibuk tayangkan versi junior mereka,
setiap kali tu, aku rasa Tuhan menjawab semua rasa terdetik sebelum aku mula kecil hati

syukur, setahun dua belakangan ini,
aku boleh kata sudah berjaya membina tapak dalam kerjaya
bukanlah hebat macam manager,
tapi cukup untuk sesekali dalam seminggu,
balik kerja dan cakap, okay, ada orang berjaya mendapat sesuatu hari ini
:)

kalau pandang keletah adik nombor dua, aku seperti sedang nampak diri sendiri yang beberapa tahun sudah
tapi sekarang boleh rasa bangga dalam hati, kurang-kurang,
gas memasak dah bertukar dua tiga kali setahun ni :)
of course, i have a very patient husband
whom would have stood next to me, cutting onions, and even most of the time, be the chef
syarat dia, asal aku sama-sama ke dapur

di hari yang lain,
kalau kerja terlalu membebankan, sama-sama tak kisah,
tuju je kedai makan dan beli makanan
asalkan balik kami kenyang dan boleh istirehat

there are still days where i still flipped back on my previous diaries of life
cause i wanted to always fell grateful,
and thankful to The One and Only
for He have given me such blessings

iya, ini pun entahkan sampai bila
tapi, tak pernah salah kalau hari-hari tadahkan tangan minta
dan jangan lupa tanggungjawab
sikit-sikit

:)