turning 20

this space, of mine, 
would probably turned 20 soon? i found it as a safe space to write my thoughts, my emotion, my life, my own journey, with insecurities, with sleepless night and, i technically, grow here too. 

i was 18 probably, when i started blogging here. it was the kind of trend back then. some people, who's famous now, started here. making money and fame. 

but for me, this is where part of my life were stored. 

i just read a few post i posted back in 2013. 12 years ago. 

on a few moments of life that i have actually forgotten about and maybe today was reminded about so that it helped me making another decision at a junction?

i still don't know why. i guess someday i'll understand. 
it feels a bit more free for me to use this space nowadays. where lesser people are here. some may have already forgotten about it as there are many other social medias available. 

who would have thought an era of tiktok and instagram would ever emerged from blogspot, myspace and friendster?

life has changed, responsibilities has been added more than the last time. and critical decisions are awaiting in line almost every other day. 
but life?
life goes on. time? 
it didn't stop for any seconds. 

it makes me think that sometimes it's tiring to race against all the time left after all work and other things constantly demanded out of me. that all time left is left for me to sleep. to forget about the troubles i have had in my mind. 

but i also forget that problems, they don't get solve on their own. it takes me to face it head on.

but this space would probably remain my favourite. until next mood comes kicking in!